I feel so sad today. It's not demoralised. It's merely a cloud of uneasy gloom and emoness and i sulk alot. It's really a series of unfortunate events, followed on by two days back.
Yah, so two days ago I woke up late (11.50.) Choir started at 1 pm and the bus took 45 minutes to reach VS. So I skipped lunch, walked very fast, and managed to end up 10 minutes late. Lol. Then we sucked, so 15 downs. Meaning, push-ups. Then i was late, so 10 more, Then sops stayed back for some more prep talks and 15 more downs. Tot. clocking: 40, on an empty stomach. -________________-.
Then today I woke up at 9, and then slept back till 9.30, then till 10.30... and had to eat a tiny lunch (a tiny cup noodle) and run out of the house again. Then I fortunately arrived 3 minutes early, there was nobody around. So I randomly walked around SSCC (not VS) until some kind soul told me that VS chir was at the Conference Room. So I ran up and was late again. Zzzz. Then at the 'rehearsal' with TKSS we got trashed up, so to speak. Meaning that i floundered due to too-long eye shutting, one song sped up like some mad train, and we were soft, and.......... You get it. So TKSS beat us. I can imagine. '4 more days, you guys still like that. This is not even competition standard. How are we going to Oloumouc like that? We might as well not go, go there get not even a gold or silver or even bronze, just a COP. (cert. of part.) Down. XXXX#$^#^(*&_)%&^.
That didn't happen. But still, I'm under a cloud of emoness. Think of some stilck figure with a big thundercloud perpetually above him, the rest is sunny but the poor stickman is drenched ands soaked to the skin. That's me. haiz... ):>
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Music
Always with Me
Somewhere, a voice calls, in the depths of my heart
May I always be dreaming, the dreams that move my heart
So many tears of sadness, uncountable through and through
I know on the other side of them I'll find you
Everytime we fall down to the ground we look up to the blue sky above
We wake to it's blueness, as for the first time
Though the road is long and lonely and the end far away, out of sight
I can with these two arms embrace the light
As I bid farewell my heart stops, in tenderness I feel
My silent empty body begins to listen to what is real
The wonder of living, the wonder of dying
The wind, town, and flowers, we all dance one unity
Somewhere a voice calls in the depths of my heart
keep dreaming your dreams, don't ever let them part
Why speak of all your sadness or of life's painfull woes
Instead let the same lips sing a gentle song for you
The whispering voice, we never want to forget,
in each passing memory always there to guide you
When a miror has been broken, shattered pieces scattered on the ground
Glimpses of new life, reflected all around
Window of beginning, stillness, new light of the dawn
Let my silent, empty body be filled and reborn
No need to search outside, nor sail across the sea
Cause here shining inside me, it's right here inside me
I've found a brightness, it's always with me
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Itsumo Nando Demo
Yondeiru Mune no Dokoka Okude
Itsumo Kokoro Odoru Yume wo Mitai
Kanashimi wa Kazoekirenai kedo
Sono Mukou de Kitto Anata ni Aeru
Kurikaesu Ayamachi no Sonotabi Hito wa
Tada Aoi Sora no Aosa wo Shiru
Hateshinaku Michi wa Tsuzuite Mieru keredo
Kono Ryoute wa Hikari wo Dakeru
Sayonara no Toki no Shizukana Mune
Zero ni Naru Karada ga Mimi wo Sumaseru
Ikiteiru Fushigi Sinde Iku Fusigi
Hana mo Kaze mo Machi mo Minna Onaji
Yondeiru Mune no Dokoka Oku de
Itsumo Nando demo Yume wo Egakou
Kanashimi no Kazu wo Iitsukusu yori
Onaji Kuchibiru de Sotto Utaou
Tojiteiku Omoide no Sono Naka ni Itsumo
Wasure takunai Sasayaki wo Kiku
Konagona ni Kudakareta Kagami no Ue nimo
Atarashii Keshiki ga Utsusareru
Hajimari no Asa Shizuka na Mado
Zero ni Naru Karada Mitasarete Yuke
Umi no Kanata niwa Mou Sagasanai
Kagayaku Mono wa Itsumo Koko ni
Watashi no Naka ni Mitsukerareta Kara
