sigh. i knew it from the moment i started revising for my math exam. i was doomed. and the resuts have sadly proved me right. chem i thought i studied enough and would get good marks in the end 24 over 35. which means about 60+ per cent. on the other hand ryan slack got 30. is this fair..?
Then chinese i was think that i would at least just pass in the end 2 marks less than passing (40). what is this. haiz. and math is the worst. i wish was emo so i can cry/ commit suicide/ cut wrist. unfortunately im not emo so the best i can mamage was a sad grim face for 5 hours straight. where i started laughing at some joke or other. sigh. i can't even be emo. what the hell.
and today chinese oral also die. i didn't study cos of exams last week and homework in between. i fucked up on the passage cos i only read till the first half after that stmble. 'erm.. eh.. oh shit.. uh... okay...' then finally the last sentence and my ordeal was over. till i selected b which was topic 4. school bullies. and my tuition teacher having stolen my notes i didn't read aything, didn't prepare, cocked up again and left dissapointed. werein i got to wang xu's house and laughed and played table soccer and did work. somewhat.
sigh. end it all. the phrase keeps echoing in me head. perhaps i should heed it. i might find a paradise where my parents give me unlimited pocket money, USPC playing cards were cheap like shit, ryan was not so emo and vampiric and more helpful, and basically i get to invent and be a architect. woo.
or maybe i might go to hell for the fact that im a free thinker. actually i believe in everything and anything, be it Amun- Ra, Jesus, Buddha, the Sikh god, Shiva (what can i say? he's in my class), the Norse gods, whatever. haha. ghosts are included in the package. and now, to do more homework and contemplate death, sleep and eternal rest. maybe i'll draw up an online will which hs not been signed by a lawer when things get really bad. like 2 days ago when i was severely emo. and yesterday when i got my resulkts. and today when i got my sesults, and maybe friday when i get my el oral. and......
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Music
Always with Me
Somewhere, a voice calls, in the depths of my heart
May I always be dreaming, the dreams that move my heart
So many tears of sadness, uncountable through and through
I know on the other side of them I'll find you
Everytime we fall down to the ground we look up to the blue sky above
We wake to it's blueness, as for the first time
Though the road is long and lonely and the end far away, out of sight
I can with these two arms embrace the light
As I bid farewell my heart stops, in tenderness I feel
My silent empty body begins to listen to what is real
The wonder of living, the wonder of dying
The wind, town, and flowers, we all dance one unity
Somewhere a voice calls in the depths of my heart
keep dreaming your dreams, don't ever let them part
Why speak of all your sadness or of life's painfull woes
Instead let the same lips sing a gentle song for you
The whispering voice, we never want to forget,
in each passing memory always there to guide you
When a miror has been broken, shattered pieces scattered on the ground
Glimpses of new life, reflected all around
Window of beginning, stillness, new light of the dawn
Let my silent, empty body be filled and reborn
No need to search outside, nor sail across the sea
Cause here shining inside me, it's right here inside me
I've found a brightness, it's always with me
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Itsumo Nando Demo
Yondeiru Mune no Dokoka Okude
Itsumo Kokoro Odoru Yume wo Mitai
Kanashimi wa Kazoekirenai kedo
Sono Mukou de Kitto Anata ni Aeru
Kurikaesu Ayamachi no Sonotabi Hito wa
Tada Aoi Sora no Aosa wo Shiru
Hateshinaku Michi wa Tsuzuite Mieru keredo
Kono Ryoute wa Hikari wo Dakeru
Sayonara no Toki no Shizukana Mune
Zero ni Naru Karada ga Mimi wo Sumaseru
Ikiteiru Fushigi Sinde Iku Fusigi
Hana mo Kaze mo Machi mo Minna Onaji
Yondeiru Mune no Dokoka Oku de
Itsumo Nando demo Yume wo Egakou
Kanashimi no Kazu wo Iitsukusu yori
Onaji Kuchibiru de Sotto Utaou
Tojiteiku Omoide no Sono Naka ni Itsumo
Wasure takunai Sasayaki wo Kiku
Konagona ni Kudakareta Kagami no Ue nimo
Atarashii Keshiki ga Utsusareru
Hajimari no Asa Shizuka na Mado
Zero ni Naru Karada Mitasarete Yuke
Umi no Kanata niwa Mou Sagasanai
Kagayaku Mono wa Itsumo Koko ni
Watashi no Naka ni Mitsukerareta Kara
